November 29, 2019 (raw)

It's almost Christmas time. By this time of the year, I'd be so excited and prancing around with lightness in my heart. But tonight, I feel nothing but heaviness. It all started with the explosive behaviours that bears a bit of weight each time it happens. But combined, it's a weight I am not sure …

September 24, 2019

Tomorrow is my 29th birthday. Late summer to early fall has been a significant time period in the last few years of my life. Last year was my official diagnosis with Multiple Sclerosis. This year has been landing the job that changes me entire career path: I am entering the second half of my training …

August 20, 2019

In this day and age, being single is now harder than being in a relationship. It appears that we grow up in a society where emphasis is on the career we pick, the life we capture on our social media accounts, and the (high) salary we earn. And if we cannot obtain these things, we …

July 29, 2019

Following my relapse, I went to my follow up appointment with my MS neurologist. I'm past the point of feeling nervous leading up to the appointment. However, every time I am in that chair among his piles of paperwork I am reminded of this lifelong battle I have ahead of my life. It's a strange …

July 8, 2019

When I was initially diagnosed, I struggled with learning how to inform people of my MS. I was afraid, and kept it as secretive as possible. As I learned more about the impact MS has on my life, I began to identify with it more as a part of who I am. This "bonding" or …

July 7, 2019

Humidity kicked my butt this weekend. A lot of dragging my feet around and sleeping in or laying around to catch a breath. But all this is to say, this is my first big relapse where it's inhibited my ability to cognitively function at a level in which I'm used to. One year since I've …

July 3, 2019

After experiencing symptoms for over a week I was finally put on a corticosteroid treatment yesterday; a 1000mg dosage each day, for three days. The decision to choose a steroid treatment came so abruptly. The clinic called the day before to ask if I could come in for a 9am appointment. I went through the …

May 23, 2019

Soft glances at you, as you nervously stare back into my eyes. You were hesitant to have your bowl taken away because you didn't want to make it awkward for me to eat alone (you were considerate), so that you did not just stare at me.  You jokingly said you did not want to sound …

May 19, 2019

This morning I woke up to an email inviting to me a wedding in March 2020...in Hawaii!!! I was both surprised and excited because this was an old university friend who I had lost contact with for several years. However, thanks to social media, I had a vague idea of what was going on with …

May 18, 2019

It's a Saturday night and I'm singing "I Just Can't Wait to be King" with exaggerated hand motions in bed, while I try to distract myself from the heartache that I hold inside my heart. It was only moments ago where I heard a loud noise outside my bedroom. I ran out to see my …